here it is.

Beloved friends, 
I haven't updated in a very long time; therefore, my mind is currently running through all the things I'd like to include in this post. Let's see.. I'll just list things in numerical fashion in some attempt to keep my thoughts organized. 


1. My middle sister is pregnant (due June 6) and she has been having a lot of back pains a few contractions lately. Please pray against this and for a safe, complete pregnancy. May His will be accomplished, whatever happens.


2. My other sister is in the ER right now for having some chest pains and she's having to stay overnight. I am trusting the Lord to take care of her. However, this has made me think about this summer and how distant I will be from them. I know it will be wonderful, but at all the same time, bittersweet.

3. These two obviously came first because they have been consuming my thoughts the past hour.
4. I can already tell this is therapeutic for me. :) 


5. man. the LORD is good. I've been reading Acts in my own personal study and it has been SO RICH. the power of the Holy Spirit is so present, so beautiful. To watch the Spirit carry Peter from this feeble man to a BOLD servant of Christ proclaiming His name. WHOA. awesome, for real.


6. Two weeks ago this coming Friday, I talked with my parents about some things the Lord is teaching me right now, namely to trust His plan post graduation (one year away!). I am pretty positive (still listening for His direction) that I won't be going straight to Grad School or Seminary. I was able to share some of the Gospel with them and how it is leading me to trust Him in my every step. This was a VERY HARD step for me. But, the feeling of obedience and responding to what He is calling you to do or say is one that holds much BEAUTY. I'm really looking forward to post-graduation, whatever that looks like. 


7. Before I get ahead of myself, I AM GOING TO BE A SENIOR so soon!! People, people... HOW did this happen? I thought graduating high school was full of emotion, but really....I've never felt pulled in so many directions before--SO EXCITED.


8. Singleness. The Lord is teaching me to cherish and adore my precious time with Him as a single person pursuing the Lord. This is a refining process, most definitely. I'm thankful that I have learned to view being single as a positive thing about myself though. I am happy to be pursuing the Lord, with or without anyone else. He is becoming my All. I'm not gonna say I've got it all together, because I still have moments (and believe I will continue to..) where I wish that I knew what my plan looked like. BUT. I don't :) and this has really taught me to pray for my husband. When I have a moment of weakness or maybe (confession time) jealousy...I have begun to turn to Him in prayer for my husband and for men in general.. to be men. 


Overwhelming!! I'll try not to go so long without writing, so maybe it will be a little less. 


For if I preach the gospel, I have nothing to boast of, for I am under compulsion; for woe is me if I do not preach the gospel. 1 corinthians 9:16