avoidance

more often than not, i choose to disengage.
i choose social media & my iPhone over a good book.
i choose pandora all hours of the day in order to escape my own head.
i choose bingeing on netflix to numb loneliness and discontent.

these choices are alarming, unhealthy and worst of all, normal.

i don't know where i'm going, but it's becoming clear that this is where I am. and I had to tell someone- naturally I chose the interwebs. it's as though i'm waking up and becoming alive to certain habits and tendencies. we (if I include you in this too it makes me feel better, of course) are creatures of habit. obviously blogging is not one of my habits, but masking vulnerability, devaluing myself and disengaging are.

we all need help (again with the we, but mostly me).